Sunday, Jan. 04, 2004 | 1:06 A.M.
Finding myself
I went to elli's diary where I got a link to take some personality tests. I'm a real big personality test person. I don't know why I am - well, that is not true - I do know why I am. I am trying to find out who I am through scientific manners. Well, anyways, I went to her diary and got the link and took all the tests that were on that website, and these are my results.
| The Big Five Personality Test |
| Extroverted | |||||||||||||| | 52% |
| Introverted | |||||||||||| | 48% |
| Friendly | |||||||||||||||| | 70% |
| Aggressive | |||||| | 30% |
| Orderly | |||||||||||| | 50% |
| Disorderly | |||||||||||| | 50% |
| Relaxed | |||||||||| | 32% |
| Emotional | |||||||||||||||| | 68% |
| Openminded | |||||||||||||||| | 64% |
| Closeminded | |||||||||| | 36% |
| INTP - "Architect". Greatest precision in thought and language. Can readily discern contradictions and inconsistencies. The world exists primarily to be understood. 3.3% of total population. |
Conscious self | Overall self |
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| Enneagram Test Results
Your Unconscious-Overall type is 4w3 |
| Personality Disorder Test Results
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| Enneagram Test Results
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| ISTJ - "Trustee". Decisiveness in practical affairs. Guardian of time- honored institutions. Dependable. 11.6% of total population. |
| ISTP - "Engineer". Values freedom of action and following interests and impulses. Independent, concise in speech, master of tools. 5.4% of total population. |
Conscious self | Overall self |
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| Enneagram Test Results
Your Unconscious-Overall type is 4w3 |
Conscious self | Overall self |
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| Enneagram Test Results
Your Unconscious-Overall type is 3w4 |
| Advanced Big Five Personality Test Results |
| Sociability | |||||||||||||| | 54% |
| Gregariousness | |||||||||||| | 50% |
| Assertiveness | |||||||||||| | 42% |
| Activity Level | |||||||||||||| | 58% |
| Excitement-Seeking | |||||||||||| | 42% |
| Cheerfulness | |||||||||||||| | 58% |
| Extroversion | |||||||||||| | 50% |
| Trust | |||||||||||||||| | 70% |
| Morality | |||||||||||||| | 58% |
| Altruism | |||||||||||||||| | 66% |
| Cooperation | |||||||||||||||||| | 74% |
| Modesty | |||||||||||| | 50% |
| Sympathy | |||||||||||||| | 54% |
| Friendliness | |||||||||||||||| | 62% |
| Self-Efficacy | |||||||||||| | 46% |
| Neatness | |||||||||| | 38% |
| Dutifulness | |||||||||||||||| | 62% |
| Achievement | |||||||||||||| | 54% |
| Self-Discipline | |||||||||||| | 42% |
| Cautiousness | |||||||||||||| | 58% |
| Orderliness | |||||||||||| | 50% |
| Anxiety | |||||||||||||||| | 66% |
| Anger | |||||||||||| | 50% |
| Depression | |||||||||||||||| | 66% |
| Self-Consciousness | |||||||||||||||| | 70% |
| Immoderation | |||||||||||||||| | 66% |
| Vulnerability | |||||||||||||||| | 62% |
| Emotional Stability | |||||||||| | 37% |
| Imagination | |||||||||||||||| | 70% |
| Artistic Interests | |||||||||||||||||| | 74% |
| Emotionality | |||||||||||||||||| | 74% |
| Adventurousness | |||||||||||||| | 54% |
| Intellect | |||||||||||||||| | 62% |
| Liberalism | |||||||||||||| | 54% |
| Openmindedness | |||||||||||||||| | 64% |
Now, after you have looked at all of these results, what does this tell you about me??
Personally, I have no idea, so I'm doing to end this entry right now so I can look my diary to see what it does say.
BRB
Okay, I'm back. Now, I know that some of these look like the exact same test taken over a couple of times, but they aren't. These are different tests I took, granted based on the same info, but either have more questions, more advanced, basically, they were different links, so I took them all. For the Myers-Briggs one, I know I am an Introvert (I) and a Thinker (T), but the other two, I am right on the borderline on both, as you can tell. Same with the other tests, If they change, they are not much difference since I am on the border.
This basically can tell you a few things. One, my personality might just be involving a whole array of ideas. Two, I am just very indecisive about myself or do not have strong tendencies about life or about myself. Three, I seek answers about myself through outside sources, than from within, though I am finding logical answers about my within, but still not the same.
I am just messed up and confused right now. I don't know where my life is taking me, I don't know where I want to take my life. I have no strong feelings about anything - I never really have as far as I can remember.
I don't like feeling emotion. It eats at me. I mean I feel emotion, but not pure emotions. I try not to let pure, strong emotions in because, well, I can't handle them. I feel I will break down completely, so in essence, I am trying to protect myself and hide myself from the world. Can't really be myself or find myself if I am hiding myself, now can I?
I'm going to go to bed now. If not, I am just going to ramble incoherently about things that will pop up in my head, and I don't feel like dealing with that right now. So, goodnight all.