Wednesday, Sept. 11, 2002 | 1:23 P.M.
i am done for
i'm gone for now. no more looking back, no more looking forward, no more looking period.
no more talking, no more holding, no more feeling, going back to what was, days of secluded happiness, basically, back to the 1950's. "age of innocence"
no more negative, no more positive, no more happy, no more sad, no more joy, no more depression.
no more showing, no more giving, no more taking, no more expression.
no more laughing, no more crying, no more smiles, no more frowns.
locked in a room of myself from now on. i will not be the same, but how would you know? times of fun and play and being lazy are over. adulthood is approaching at a rapid rate, and i must welcome it instead of denying it. responsibility is the word for the day, hell, for the rest of my life. and right now, i'm only responsible for myself, what i do, what i want, what i need, what i desire. that's all i have control over anymore, not over anyone else, b/c i have lost it.
so, the times that you have known me are done for. no more, just no more.