Friday, May. 31, 2002 | 1:09 P.M.
almost lost this entry....good thing i have jedi reflexes
so, yeah, school is over for everyone, i mean, for those who aren't taking summer classes (sorry luil). Drank last night so that was fun. Tasted Mike's hard Ice Tea. if you like ice tea, espically like lipton that you can buy in a glass bottle at stores, then you will really like this. only problem is the alcohol content is 4%. pretty shitty if you ask me, but after 4, you know, doesn't really matter.
the apt is looking better. the living room is pretty much set up in the way that it will stay for the rest of the year. now, the only things we have to do is clean it up, clean out our cars, and clean out my dorm room. my dorm room really shouldn't take that long. the only things that aren't clothes or papers are my lamps, tv and end table. so i will greatly use my suitcase and backpack to get out the other stuff. and then once that is over with, perhaps get it all out of the car, set up things to where they should go, and have it done....or you know, get it in the car, leave it, and go find drinking or playing somewhere...decisions decisions.
only downside to all this is the fact that i have to sing at 9 in the AM. on top of that, i have to be there at 8AM. this better be the last time for a long while that i have to get up that early.
and during all this shuffle, need to go to bank, pay rent (keep having the musical Rent in my head when i say that word), and find a job for this summer and maybe for the rest of my school year.
speaking of another school year, i think that i am a bit jealous that i am not graduating when i was expected to graduate. before this time, i was fine and understood why i had to and it wasn't a big deal, until i see other people i am supposed to graduate with .....well, graduate. i'm not saying that i don't want to graduate with these other people next year, or that i want to graduate with these people this year....it's not about the people really, it is just about when i got to Hendrix, i was graduating in 4 years, and most of the people i graduated high school from that went to college have graduated, and now, well, i guess i just feel stupid right now that i couldn't graduate on time. it just sucks really, and to top it all off, i know i failed a class, well, because i gave up. when i figured that i had to make high B's to just pass to class, i knew what i was writing was not even close to a B paper, so i quit. i have to take it next year to graduate, so, the way i was looking at it was now i know what to expect, and i should do much better in that class. but i know so many people will just see it as me failing and not trying and because of partying, playing and other things, and i will agree with them, but i am trying to look at it like, well, i made a mistake, so i took action to just stop, focus on my other classes, and when the time comes to take it again, i will be ready. was i foolish? i don't know....
i know i got at least 2 B, but i am hoping for a B and an A. i am fearing a B and a C.
so, i just lost my train of thought and now do not have a clue as to what to say next. uhm....please come visit us this summer, if you need a place to stay, we have lots of room. and if you all have places to stay this summer that has room , i would love to come and visit you all. even though there will be people here over the summer, i would still like to see people that won't be here.
i remembered what i was going to say, or part of it. it is going to be weird next year without all the people i started out hendrix with like matty, matt, rani, josh, chris....it almost, right now, seems like next here will be like a desert town with just ghosts walking around and i am all alone. i know that won't be the case, but it still feels that way, you know...won't know where to go when i am on campus or who to talk to...not saying that the people that will be here aren't any less of my friends, but, i guess, i've been with these people for 4 years, and hung out with them for so long....just will feel like a bit of hendrix is gone. and the fact that i don't know how many male friends will be here next year...the phrase "i'm surrounded by females" would make any man excited, but eh, i just hope they won't make me wear make-up or play dresss up with them....that will be sooo emasculating...blah.
anyways, i think i have bored you all enough, so i will go for now. email me or find me on im if you want to talk to find out what my addy is or #. see you all around and have a great summer. get lots of sleep!