2002-02-22 | 12:58 a.m.
new ventures in life
Tired....as usual, going to go to bed early, not likely
Went through new experience today...very exciting. it did help that it was with someone i love, tremendously. would i do this again...possibly, but in about a week or more.
Carmen is coming along...but taking up time.
Need to get paper started...due monday, 10-12 pages long....argh!
OH! bought some new shoes today. one way of describing them is "un-me" shoes, but hey, i'm a hendrix player now, better start acting like one (hendrix player...acting......ahahaha...yeah)
it is stange. here i am with someone but sometimes i think about others...what would it be like with this one, or would i have a chance, but not in a "i would never have", more a "would i, maybe?" tone. i don't think it is because i am unhappy or not fulfilled...maybe just a desire...or fantasy; a place i have never been, but often dream of being...oh well
sometimes i wish things would just go my way...but, that's just me being an idealist, where things work out for the best in everything, and no one is mad, hurt, sad, or depressed. *sigh*
i want to be away and do nothing, absolutly nothign....well, not absolutely! each day passes and i think to myself, i want to be a massage therapist.
but need sleep, and to clean my room! grrr....
Chadwin